religion

is one of the (many) self-defining labels that you can choose yourself, no holds barred. why would anyone choose one that promotes things like hate and differential treatment?

i don't think i will ever understand this.

young

this sunday paper told me to relax.

i'm sitting in our sun room with two handsome cats and nothing in my life to care about, except the flies that are just out of reach. they are flying in squares. living anywhere but the present is meaningless to me right now.

while i'm aware that failing ecology would be an obstacle, ignoring school problematic, and dispassionately meeting my responsibilities a pathetic excuse for a lifestyle, i know that now what is best for me is shedding my neuroses for a while and living free.

it seems like emotion only registers in my head. i think i should be jealous, or feel lonely, or like something or someone, but that mental acknowledgment is the extent of it.
last cinco de mayo, i got plastered and ruined a friendship. i think that is a good place in my memory to draw the line where my heart just stopped working.

People & Places

Everyone leaves where they are to find themselves. Why is a change of scenery necessary for self-actualization? I think that's another lie. (Read: jealousy)

"I've heard that 80% of America is made up of anthropocentric and passionate Christians who deny the theory of evolution.
Could this be a misconception on my part?
I think it probably is.
I think there are a great many misconceptions between Americans and Japanese.
If only we could overcome these through manga."
[古屋 兎丸]

i have come to realise that men are not born to be free.

Actual happiness always looks pretty squalid in comparison with the overcompensations for misery. And, of course, stability isn't nearly so spectacular as instability. And being contented has none of the glamour of a good fight against misfortune, none of the picturesqueness of a struggle with temptation, or a fatal overthrow by passion or doubt. Happiness is never grand.
[Brave New World]